Sunday, April 14, 2013

Starting Over

So. I've been a runner my whole life. I ran all through out grade school.. ran track and cross country in high school.. and continued running in college for Ohio University {Go Bobcats} After college.. I still ran A. LOT.  That is.. until sweet little Emersyn came into the mix. :)

When I found out I was pregnant I was coaching a girls high school cross country team. I should have trusted my body and continued to run - but when I was about 11 weeks pregnant I started worrying about how fast I was running/my heart rate/etc...{I worried about everything!}

Anyway - I was trying to keep up with our top girls to pace them - but I live in South Carolina.. it was Early September, extremely hot.. and I was towards the end of the 1st trimester. We were running around a 6:15 mile {So fast.} and I freaked. out.

I remember the exact moment.. I stopped after I heard the mile time.. the girls kept going.. and I spilled everything to a parent who was helping time us. She let me sit in her air conditioned car while I cried, cooled off, and tried to convince myself that I had NOT harmed Em.  {was I crazy? Yes.}

Needless to say.. after the melt down.. thinking I had ran too fast in crazy hot weather - my running stopped.

It started again when Em was about 6 or 7 weeks old because I began summer training with my girls.. but my body was just absolutely not ready. Running 100 meters was almost too much. I dreaded going to practice because I was sleep deprived/nursing/not wanting to run/etc. so that made it worse. I worked my way up through out the summer and made it to about 4 miles, but I still didn't feel like I was really ready for that step at all.

School started.. and teaching my firsties, mixed with taking care of Em, mixed with grading papers/adjusting to life as a mama/breastfeeding = running absolutely stopped.

And here I am.

Em is almost a year.. and since the summer I can probably count on both hands the amount of times I've ran. But that is all changing my friends! Running has been such a big part of my life and I've definitely noticed that it's been missing. Seriously. Missing. So this weekend I decided to stop making excuses {I'm the best at making excuses by the way} and started running again.

Anyway - just wanted to see if anyone else has gone through this and how you've kept yourself motivated? I'm motivated right now.. but it's a Sunday night and I've had the full weekend off.

Being a Mama changes everything. I'm still getting used to the adjustment of not having a lot of personal time - especially since we don't live near family. But sweet Em isn't going anywhere.. so I probably need to start getting my LIFE back together and include her in it! {aka..jogging stroller while she says HI to all of the passing trees/cars/people/mailboxes}.  Oh that little girl has my heart.

Speaking of Sweet Em...

We just LOVE coral.. and BabyGap+Extra 30% off Sale Price = Problem Amazing. :)

Happy Sunday! xo.

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